Today was my book group meeting - we were discussing Somewhere Towards the End, a memoir from Diana Athill dealing with growing old. One of her quotes really struck me:
'Appearance is important to old women, not because we suppose it will impress other people, but because of what we ourselves see when we look in the mirror'
It can't only be my wardrobe that contains 'happy clothes' and things I pull out when I'd really like to crawl beneath the nearest rock. But recently, my personal vanities have centered more around hair and scent.
Scent, because the perfume I have relied upon to lift my spirits has been discontinued. Origins Fretnot. I'm sure it's the power of suggestion, but when the box says 'In times of confusion and concern, let nature's aromatic cheerleaders, including perky Tangerine, Orange and Lemon, rally your spirits and motivate your mood' you can't fail to feel uplifted.
I'm loyal to my perfume - pretty much a one scent at a time girl. Begining with Anais Anais (a gift from my brother when I was about 15) and phasing through Obsession, Chanel No19, Floris Malmaison and Eau Dynamisante. I didn't wear perfume at all when the boys were babies, but when I got back on the wagon, that Origins did it for me.
Being without a current fragrance leaves me slightly adrift - shopping the perfume counters is too much like speed dating - overwhelming and unsatisfying. It seems I need to encounter the right choice rather than seek it out. And perhaps it is this. Madonna of the Almonds.
Last night, Marina Fiorato had a return visit to the shop to read from her second novel, Madonna of the Almonds . As part of the marketing for the book (which is set in in 16th century Italy and was inspired by the back of an Amaretto bottle!), Marina had the opportunity to develop a perfume with Floris. I found the whole idea of that, totally fascinating and had asked her about it the last time she came. So I was thrilled when this visit, she brought a sample. It's good. It may be the one.
And my other current vanity? Hair. I have vaguely curly hair which is generally stuck, still wet from the shower, up in a clip and ignored. But the recent discovery of (whisper it) a patch of suspicious silvery members of the follicle gang has prompted action. I don't think I'll ever be committed enough to my appearance to contemplate colouring it. Too much upkeep. But perhaps I ought to have a final fling of enjoying my hair, before I go grey gracefully. So it's off to the hairdressers tomorrow.

Don't know exactly what to ask for - do you think 'something to savour the last moments of youth' is sufficient guidance?